BTS leader RM, aka Kim Namjoon, recently completed his mandatory military service alongside bandmate V. Just hours after their discharge, the two went live on Weverse. Later, RM held a solo Weverse livestream and opened up about his challenging military experience. His honest words revealed a deeply personal struggle and touched fans’ hearts. ARMYs were moved to hear how much he endured during his service.
BTS RM Shares Heartbreaking Military Struggles After Discharge
During his livestream, RM shared that military life was tough on him. The stress was overwhelming, which led to severe insomnia. Sleep became a battle, and he often felt like a zombie. The constant pressure pushed him to seek help from a neuropsychiatrist. Even now, he relies on medication to manage his condition, though he’s improving. He stated that the nights still scare him, as lying still for hours feels like torment. Slowly, he’s working to rebuild his routine and reduce his medication.
However, during his service, Namjoon found comfort in writing. He poured his thoughts into a diary, which became a lifeline. The pages were filled with raw emotions, including plenty of swearing, as he struggled with sleepless nights. He further added that the diary’s contents were too personal to share. Writing helped him cope and gave him strength to push through the hardest moments. In his words, “Thanks to the diary, I could hang in there.”
Fans admired his honesty and appreciated his vulnerable side. One fan wrote, “From insomnia to therapy to getting scolded and whatnot… Namjoon’s been through so much in these 18 months, and the fact that he shared it all with us so openly & without any filter is so strong of him. I want to give him the biggest hug.” Another fan wrote, “I feel like we could all tell that the military would’ve been an awful experience for the tannies, but listening to Namjoon opening up to us about his struggles with insomnia, having to take medications, therapy and not being able to write music hurts like a knife to the heart.”
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